what its like for my loved ones when I cut.
HERE IS WHAT SOME OF MY LOVED ONES HAVE TO SAY.

TRINA: The first time (I believe) Danielle cut was the night we got into a fight! I screamed at her for the attitude that she had taken towards me! It hurt me to yell at her the way I did, But I was hurt by her attitude and angry!
I remember her going outside and crying! I followed her outside and there she was bleeding. Deep down I panicked, but being a parent, you learn not to panick in a situation like that so that your child will stay more calm.I didnt know what to do. My first instinct was to call the hospital, then I thought that maybe I would take her myself.
I had to call our friends to see if they could care for my 6 yr old while we were gone, and they asked what had happened, I explained the situation, paceing back and forth trying not to panick as not to scare Danielle or my 6 yr old. Our friends came and we talked to Danielle about it for a while!
At the time, I hated myself for the way I yelled at Danielle. I thought it was my fault because she had done it! I kept thinking, what did I do to this girl, and oh my gawd how will I beable to live with myself if she bleeds to death. I didnt know how to react. I was angry with myself for what she had done to herself.
The first thing I said to her was Why did you do this? I didnt know what to say to her. I wanted to tell her that I wasnt worth the pain that she just caused herself, that I wasnt worth dieing over. I still feel that it was my fault that she cut in the first place.
Danielle and I have had our share of differences, but I love her like she was my own, and I would do anything for her just as I would for my own children. That night all I could think about was that it should be my blood not hers.
Everytime Danielle cuts, it brings me back to that night. I hate to see her hurting the way she does. She is a very beautiful girl, and I hate to see her do this to herself. I always think that maybe if there was something I could do to make her stop then I would.
It is very upsetting, it is very scary. Each time I panick. I get very angry because I dont understand why she does this. I am not angry or dissapointed in her, but angry at the fact that I cant make those feelings go away.

Ashley: When u cut it makes me mad to see that you have this
problem. That is taking everything out of you to
overcome it. It makes me sad to think that you could
hit something major and my best friend will die! But I
am very happy that you realize you have a problem and
you actually WANT help! I think you have come a long
way in the last years and thinks can get better! if no
one has told you that they are proud of you for wanting
help and facing your fears, I want to tell you right
now “I am very proud of you Danielle! I love you very
much!

Ways To Come Out Of The Closet With Being A Self Harmer.
There are many ways to tell someone and get help. You can tell someone you trust. Say "Hey Bob what do you think about someone self harming?" wait for there reply, and then say. "well what if i was a self harmer?" once again Waite for there reply and so one.
Another way is just be honest with your parents. Tell them I am ready for help here is what I have done please help me. Don't be afraid of them getting mad because they wont.
BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU CANT GET HELP IN LESS YOU WANT IT. NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. THE ANSWER LIES IN YOU.
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My favoret songs in the whole world.
My own prison by Creed.A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I hear a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

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Whats this life for by Creed

Hurray for a child
That makes it through
If there's any way
Because the answer lies in you
They're laid to rest
Before they know just what to do
Their souls are lost
Because they could never find
What's this life for
I see your soul, it's kind of gray
I see your heart, you look away
You see my wrist, I know your pain
I know your purpose on your plane
Don't say a last prayer
Because you could never find
What's this life for
But they ain't here anymore
Don't have to settle the score
Cause we all live
Under the reign of one king

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